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Dalliance

by Gold-Bears

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YEAH, TONIGHT, IT’S HARD TO TELL BETWEEN MY LIFE AND YOUR DREAM. YEAH TONIGHT, I’LL PUT DOWN OLD LETTERS AND CLEAR OUT ALL OF YOUR THINGS. IT CAN’T BE HEALTHY, BUT AT LEAST YOU’LL KNOW WHAT IT IS YOU’RE SUPPOSED TO BELIEVE. YEAH, TONIGHT, “YOU’RE WAY TOO OLD TO BE UNHAPPY LIKE THIS FOREVER.” YEAH, TONIGHT, “YOU’LL MAKE BAD DECISIONS AND CONTINUE YOUR SELFISH BEHAVIOR.” IT’S SO UNHEALTHY, “BUT AT LEAST I’LL KNOW WHAT IT IS I’M SUPPOSED TO BELIEVE.” TAKE YOUR TIME, BECAUSE THERE’S NOTHING IN THIS WORLD THAT CAN MAKE YOU MINE. I GUESS I NEVER LOVED YOU ANYWAY. TAKE YOUR TIME, IT SHOULD ONLY TAKE A MINUTE TO END, THAT’S FINE. I GUESS YOU’RE JUST A MISTRESS ANYWAY. IN YOUR BED, I PART THE CURTAIN OF HAIR THAT SURROUNDS YOUR FACE, YOUR HEAD. IN YOUR BED, WITH YOUR TONGUE IN MY MOUTH WE PROMISE A WORLD THAT WON’T END. MY HISTORIONICS ONLY BEGAN TO EXIST ON THE DAY I DECIDED TO LEAVE.
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Chest 02:29
THERE WAS A PULLING AT MY CHEST, STAGE LEFT. WELL, I GUESS YOU CAN’T STAND TO BE ALONE. AND YOU SAID, “GIVE ME ONE REASON TO LIVE BECAUSE I’VE HEARD ALL YOUR BULLSHIT.” WHEN YOU FALL, WHEN YOU CRASH, WHEN THERE’S JUST SOME THINGS YOU CAN NEVER TELL. THREE SHORT WEEKS AT THE TOP, YOU KNOW, NOW NOBODY WANTS YOU. WELL, I DO. THERE’S NO TELLING WHERE WE’RE AT, FUCK THAT. AT LEAST WE’RE NOT STUCK IN FLORIDA. AND YOU SAID, “GIVE ME ONE REASON TO STAY BEFORE WE DO SOMETHING GOOD HERE.” WHEN YOU FALL, WHEN YOU CRASH, WHEN THERE’S JUST SOME THINGS YOU CAN NEVER TELL. EVERYONE THINKS THE WORST, THEY THINK THAT YOU’RE WORTHLESS. YEAH, THEY DO. THIS TOWN IS A SEIVE AND THERES NOTHING WE CAN DO. WE STAND WITH OUR ARMS OUTSTRETCHED AND WE EXPECT THE WORLD OF YOU.
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‘TIL DEATH DO US PART, WE LET IT DIE. UP UNTIL THE MOMENT THAT YOU SIGNED, YOU STILL HAVE A FIRM GRIP ON HER ARM AND THE INSIDE OF MY THIGH. YOU SAID, “YOU WON’T GET OUT OF THIS ALIVE!” I WONDER HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN TRY. THE MICROWAVE IT MICROWAVES THE AIR UNTIL IT’S TOO HOT TO SURVIVE. I GUESS YOU’LL STILL BE MAD AT ME UNTIL THE DAY WE BOTH DECIDE TO DIE. I HOPE YOU TRY. YOU SAID THAT YOU DON’T KNOW ME AS THE SEROTONIN HOLLOWED OUT MY EYES. YOU SAID THAT SHE WAS LONELY, BUT NOTHING I CAN SAY CAN BE THE THING YOU WANT TO HEAR AND THAT’S NOT RIGHT. YOU CAN’T KEEP ME OUT OF SOMEONE’S LIFE. YOU WONDER HOW MUCH HARDER I CAN TRY. THE COMPENSATION COMPENSATES FOR EVERYTHING EXCEPT FOR ALL THOSE LIES. I GUESS YOU’LL NEVER NOTICE ME UNTIL THE DAY WE BOTH LET HER DECIDE. I WISH YOU’D TRY.
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TINY SHIRTS, YEAH, I KNOW IT HURTS. WHEN SHE GETS COLD IT SUCKS I CAN’T STEP IN. ALL THESE THINGS I SWORE TO HELP HER WITH, I’LL GLADLY TAKE THEM ON WITH FULL ACCOUNT. NO ONE CAN REPLACE THAT PURE RESOLVE. SIMPLE WORDS, GRACE, AND WATERWORKS. A WAVE CRASHED ON THE BEACH A SECOND TIME. POUNDING SNARES IN THE SKY SOMEWHERE, I SWEAR YOU’LL NEVER BE THE LAST TO KNOW. BECAUSE NO ONE CAN BE BLAMED BESIDES MYSELF. IF IT’S TRUE WHAT EVERYBODY SAYS, THEN SHE WILL NEVER FEEL THIS WAY AGAIN. I HOPE THEY’RE RIGHT. IF NOT TODAY, THEN SOME DAY AFTER THIS. SOMETHING SLASHED OR MARKED THE HANDS OF TIME. I’LL CARRY YOU ACROSS THE FROZEN SNOW. I SWEAR YOU’LL NEVER BE THE LAST TO KNOW. YEAH, YOU CAN NEVER BE THE LAST TO KNOW. I KNOW THEY’RE RIGHT.
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Memo 01:35
I HEARD THE SONGS YOU WERE WRITING, AT LEAST THE ONES PINING FOR DAYS THAT WERE LONG, LONG GONE. I SURE WOULD LIKE TO FEEL WHOLE. THE BEDROOM’S SO TINY, OR AT LEAST THE POOR TILING SUGGEST WE SHOULD ALL GOO HOME. I SURE WOULD LIKE TO FEEL WHOLE. OR AT LEAST A LITTLE MORE WHOLE. I COULD WRITE YOU A SYMPHONY. YOU WERE WORKING AT SOTHEBY’S AND DOING QUITE WELL ON YOUR OWN. YOU DROPPED A COIN IN THE TURNSTILE, SAID SOMETHING ABOUT “ON TIME.” I WATCHED YOU GO ROUND AND ROUND. I SURE WOULD LIKE TO FEEL WHOLE. SHE CAN’T KNOW WHAT I’VE DONE, I’M DUMB SHE WAS SO YOUNG. CAN’T RUMINATE DAYS GONE BY. I SURE WOULD LIKE TO FEEL WHOLE. OR AT LEAST A LITTLE MORE WHOLE.
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ON THE WAY FROM TALLAHASSEE TO GAINESVILLE, WE LISTEN TO SONGS IN THE DARK. SOMEHOW YOU CONVINCE ME THAT WE WEREN’T REALLY THAT SMART. WITH SOMEBODY’S BAND IN THE BACKGROUND, WE POSTULATE WHY WE WERE RIGHT. WHEN THIS SONG IS OVER I’LL PROBABLY JUST CALL IT A NIGHT. WE WERE YOUNG. JESSICA IS CALLING AN OUTING, WE WHISPER TO GODS IN THE NIGHT. WHEN THIS ONE IS OVER I THINK WE’LL JUST KNOW WE WERE RIGHT. ADAM’S FRIEND IS IN THE BACKSEAT, HE MUMBLES A STANZA ALL RIGHT. ON THE WAY TO THE CONCERT WE FOLLOW A YELLOW/WHITE LINE. WE WERE YOUNG. SO, YOU CALLED ME YESTERDAY WITH A NICE EXCUSE AND A FUNNY FACE AND THE WORLD JUST SHRINKS AND FALLS AWAY.
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THURSDAY NIGHT WE SETTLED INTO YOUR PARENTS’ HOUSE. THE NEWSMAN DIDN’T KNOW WHAT TO MAKE OF THESE CLOUDS. WE PROBABLY SHOULD’VE WENT WITH ANYTHING BUT YOUR GUT. LIKE THE WAY YOU USED TO LOOK AT ME LAST MONTH. CHAMBRAY SHIRTS, CATHOLIC SKIRTS, AND A PROMISED LIFE. I SHOULD’VE KNOWN THIS WAS ALL JUST A LESSON IN TIME. THE SHORTEST DISTANCE FROM ME TO YOU IS ROUGHLY 400 MILES. THE WAY THAT YOU BUTTON YOUR SHIRT ALWAYS MAKES ME SMILE.
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Hey, Sophie 04:59
HEY, SOPHIE, YOU’VE DONE SOMETHING TO ME. WHILE I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU’RE SAYING, I BELIEVE EVERY WORD. NOTHING ELSE CAN MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY. I KNOW YOU DON’T BELIEVE ME, BUT I MEAN EVERY WORD. FOR BETTER OR WORSE, THIS IS LIFE. I SAY YOUR NAME AT LEAST A THOUSAND TIMES. FOR BETTER OR WORSE, THIS IS A LONELY WAY TO DIE. I’M SORRY IT HAD TO BE THIS WAY. ON A PARK SLIDE IN THE CITY, YOU MAKE ME FEEL AGAIN. HEY, SOPHIE, YOU’VE DONE SOMETHING TO ME. THE WAY YOU HOLD MY HAND, I’LL NEVER LOVE AGAIN. I SAY YOUR NAME AT LEAST A MILLION TIMES.
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For You 02:54
“YOU’RE A MISTAKE!” YOU SAID ON THE PHONE LAST NIGHT. I CAN RELATE, BUT THERE WAS SOMETHING ABOUT THAT NIGHT. I’LL DISOWN EVERYTHING I KNOW, REPUDIATE WHAT I MISTOOK FOR FATE. AT LEAST YOU CAN TURN IT OFF. I WROTE THE TRUTH, YOU READ IT ONE LAST TIME. I HAVE THE PROOF FOR THE REST OF OUR GODDAMN LIVES. OH NOW YOU’RE JUST SHOWING OFF. I HEARD YOU’RE UPSET BECAUSE I SOLD YOUR RING. IT WAS JUST A REMINDER THAT YOU NEVER DID ANYTHING FOR ME.
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Her Fears 02:40
YOU WERE NOT THINKING LIKE THE REST OF US WERE. SILENT AND DREAMING AND YOU THINK YOU’RE THE FIRST. YOU WON’T LET ME DO ANYTHING FOR YOU. YOU SAID THAT YOU’D TRY ANYTHING FOR THE FIRST TIME. WELL, IT’S NOT LIKE BEFORE. I DON’T THINK SO. YOU WERE NOT DRINKING LIKE THE REST OF US WERE. STOIC, NO FEELINGS, AND YOU THINK YOU’RE THE WORST.
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WHO AM I TO TELL YOU THAT YOU’RE GETTING OLDER? WHO AM I TO TELL YOU THAT YOU’RE WORTHLESS, THAT YOU’RE GETTING BIG, THAT YOU SPIT WHEN YOU SPEAK SOMETIMES? WHO AM I TO CORRECT YOU WHEN YOU’RE COUNTING? WHO AM I TO SAY YOU’RE DOING GREAT OR THAT YOUR LAST BOYFRIEND AND ALL HIS FRIENDS ARE JUST PUNKS? WHO AM I TO TELL YOU TO STOP DRINKING OR FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS WITH NO REGRETS OR YOUR HEART’S JUST NOT IN IT OR YOU SLEEP WAY TOO MUCH? NOT I. WHO AM I TO COMPLAIN THAT YOU NEVER CALL? WHO AM I TO SAY YOU’RE BAD WITH MONEY OR THAT YOU JUST CAN’T RELATE OR THAT YOU THREW YOUR LIFE AWAY THIS TIME?

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released June 3, 2014

Slumberland Records, 2014
www.slumberlandrecords.com/catalog/show/270

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